When converting to paganism, it is OK to:

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ergiinmiddleearth:

• Avoid ritual aspects like the plague. You can reject/avoid things that remind you of a previous religion. 
• Work towards feeling “not panicky about Hell” some days instead of “good about yourself™”. Sometimes there’s not enough water to chug in the world or enough positive thoughts than can undo Sunday School Reflexes. A lot of conversion advice is trite and ableist. You’re not doing something wrong if you have doubt or negative feelings. 
• Doubt some more. Members of the clergy of many paths are required to take a period of discernment, and so can you. (Quickie Discernment Checklist)
• Slip up and use your former religion’s lingo. 
• Stop and start. You don’t have to convert all at once. 
• Not be initiated. There are religions that require it, and religions that don’t. 
• Doubt again and seek multiple sources. This is just good research. It will help counteract the influence of bias. Get a second, or even hundredth opinion. Chances are, you’ll find someone who went through something or is going through something similar. 
• Chuckle at bad advice. I’ve seen and received a lot from people who wouldn’t know Catholicism if it danced in front of them wearing nothing but Jesus’ folded burial napkin. 
• Message me to vent. 

I myself am I ‘recovering’ Christian. I can say the Sunday School Reflexes are sort of like when queer people have reflex homophobia due to oppressive environments growing up. And they’re very real and tbh kinda scary. Especially if you are a closeted witch and still have to go to church with your family. I myself sometimes feel that uncontrollable anxiety when the pastor talks about not getting into heaven. Those feelings are completely okay, especially because (depending on what branch of Christianity/what church/etc.) there can be teachings that can be toxic and even traumatic. Converting religions can be hard, especially from such a strict one such as Christianity. It’s perfectly okay if you have doubts and fears. Nobody is perfect, and nobody expects you to immediately become a 100% Pagan (or whatever other religion you are converting to) with an undying faith. Change takes time.